Marc, every time I read your posts I think this child is so lucky. Not just for all the beautiful things you say but that you are showing him your self, and that is something that in all the busyness of life, parents forget to do. As kids, we end up watching them and feeling them without knowing their personal thoughts. It always feels like a special way in when we do.
1. We went to St. Lucia a month go. It was beautiful.
2. I’m going to skip that. Not sure how to answer just yet. lol
3. I look back at the pictures when my now 16 year old was a baby. 🤦🏾♀️. I miss those so bad, but just as you stated in your writing. For me I felt I had no clue what I was doing, I didn’t produce enough milk and that made me sad and stressed. I felt she cried all the time and I didn’t know how to sooth her. Like ALL the things of a new parent. But I wouldn’t trade those things. Sometimes I do wish I could go back and do things differently, sit in moments of just peace and appreciation. But I like to believe that God is allowing me that now. I like to believe that our sleepless nights of thinking about our desires and our worries and wonderings they are all real emotions that we will feel when we are wanting what we want in the moment. However, I believe our prayers and tears that we bring at God’s feet during that time is also Him strengthening us while comforting us for where we are now.
I love your last two lines Bethany. I’m realizing how parenting forces us to rely on God so much more as we are navigating all this newness. I’m wishing a vacation for us on a Caribbean island soon ❤️
This couldn’t have come at a better time, Marc. This was exactly what was on my mind earlier today. I love who and where I am now but I miss my old routines in my old home with the old me. I find myself longing for the smallest details in things that used to look so ordinary. And it’s not just nostalgia. It feels like things were much simpler back then. But, Romans 8:28 has been (and will always be) my comfort scripture and a reminder that I can trust God with my life.
I love that verse so much. It really grounds me going through the tough times in knowing that He is always at the beginning and the end of the struggle and triumph. Appreciate you for reading ❤️
3. All the time. A photo of my daughter as an infant recently popped up in my husband's phone and we both had a collective, "How did she used to fit on the bathroom counter?!" moment. She goes into kindergarten this Fall and a few times a week—with melatonin and blackout curtains—I STILL wake up between 3-4 am hearing phantom baby cries, only to sleep a hair too late for time finish my workout before she comes barging into my office. Do I like scheduling my life into precise chunks six weeks in advance vs. leisurely deciding if I want to show up to a social gathering an hour prior? In some ways, no. But my husband and I both have older parents who are desperate for quality time with us now, and clearly regret prioritizing work when we were young, and I remember there will be a day she won't need me anymore. That's enough to say, yup, the sleepless nights and social isolation are worth it. At least so far :)
Whew I felt this. I’m trying to be as present as possible because I know soon these moments will be gone. We also had a moment where we reflected on how we use to bath him in our bathroom sink as well! The sleeping is getting so much better. He’s a bit violent in the bed with the kicks but soon we are hoping to transition him to his own space. Thank you for residing Sophia ❤️
Looking back, recalling…happy memories mixed with longing. God does what He does… love that line, and now Myles has the better, best of both of you! You’re still fun and loving…just have bigger hearts and dreams now. Such a beautiful letter he’ll cherish someday. 😊🩷
Light: I was recently in Costa Rica, hosting a yoga retreat that was 10 years in the making.
Medium: I was finally at a place in my life where I could get away for a week and not have the world come crashing down. I have always been fee-for-service with work, which means no paid time off. With this retreat, I made enough to cover my weekly paycheck, as well as airfare for myself and my 17 year old son. Enough people signed up that both of our lodging was free. It was so magical to share that week with my boy.
Heavy: I am so grateful for where I am today. You couldn't pay me enough to go back and be a younger form of myself, UNLESS I had today's wisdom.
Thank you for your weekly letters, I look forward to them. They fill my heart. You are seen.
I don't know why, but I really love your heavy response. It's something I need to think about - I feel the same. Maybe because everything has led up to where I am now. I'm yearning for a trip for my wife and I. I know it won't be soon since we all have separation anxiety from Myles, but something like Costa Rica or a week away like yours would be nice ❤️
I get that. There is no way I could've done my trip when my boys were little. You're in the thick of it now, but you'll find your way. You might need to think smaller, like and evening or overnight away, rather than a full week.
My most recent trip was just a two hour drive to Woodstock NY! We went last year and we think we’ll make it a yearly thing. The food there is REALLY GOOD. And the town is nice and walkable.
I don’t think I’ve felt a sense of nostalgia for who I once was I do feel a sense of sadness sometimes though because often times we don’t get to appreciate it except in hindsight. Working better at being appreciative in the moment and doing LOTS of recording and photos has made a big difference for me so far
This was so beautiful - thank you.
Thank you for reading, Bridget. I appreciate your kind words.
Lovely, poignant, insightful...
Grateful for you reading.
Marc, every time I read your posts I think this child is so lucky. Not just for all the beautiful things you say but that you are showing him your self, and that is something that in all the busyness of life, parents forget to do. As kids, we end up watching them and feeling them without knowing their personal thoughts. It always feels like a special way in when we do.
Thank you Deirdre! This work really is a commitment to vulnerability.
That was so touching, Marc. Thanks for posting.
Thank you for receiving Diana.
Love this.
1. We went to St. Lucia a month go. It was beautiful.
2. I’m going to skip that. Not sure how to answer just yet. lol
3. I look back at the pictures when my now 16 year old was a baby. 🤦🏾♀️. I miss those so bad, but just as you stated in your writing. For me I felt I had no clue what I was doing, I didn’t produce enough milk and that made me sad and stressed. I felt she cried all the time and I didn’t know how to sooth her. Like ALL the things of a new parent. But I wouldn’t trade those things. Sometimes I do wish I could go back and do things differently, sit in moments of just peace and appreciation. But I like to believe that God is allowing me that now. I like to believe that our sleepless nights of thinking about our desires and our worries and wonderings they are all real emotions that we will feel when we are wanting what we want in the moment. However, I believe our prayers and tears that we bring at God’s feet during that time is also Him strengthening us while comforting us for where we are now.
I love your last two lines Bethany. I’m realizing how parenting forces us to rely on God so much more as we are navigating all this newness. I’m wishing a vacation for us on a Caribbean island soon ❤️
This couldn’t have come at a better time, Marc. This was exactly what was on my mind earlier today. I love who and where I am now but I miss my old routines in my old home with the old me. I find myself longing for the smallest details in things that used to look so ordinary. And it’s not just nostalgia. It feels like things were much simpler back then. But, Romans 8:28 has been (and will always be) my comfort scripture and a reminder that I can trust God with my life.
I love that verse so much. It really grounds me going through the tough times in knowing that He is always at the beginning and the end of the struggle and triumph. Appreciate you for reading ❤️
Heartbomb. I have to go and look at photos now. Marvel at the passage of time. What it steals and reveals. And all those moments in between.
Appreciate you for reading, Amar. Holding these moments close.
Always a pleasure, Marc. I may come back and answer those questions. Still thinking, unpacking... 🤔
🫶🏻😭 emotional in a good way: “I know who we used to be, but I love who we are and what we have right now – you.” 🥰
Thank you, Elaine ❤️🥹
3. All the time. A photo of my daughter as an infant recently popped up in my husband's phone and we both had a collective, "How did she used to fit on the bathroom counter?!" moment. She goes into kindergarten this Fall and a few times a week—with melatonin and blackout curtains—I STILL wake up between 3-4 am hearing phantom baby cries, only to sleep a hair too late for time finish my workout before she comes barging into my office. Do I like scheduling my life into precise chunks six weeks in advance vs. leisurely deciding if I want to show up to a social gathering an hour prior? In some ways, no. But my husband and I both have older parents who are desperate for quality time with us now, and clearly regret prioritizing work when we were young, and I remember there will be a day she won't need me anymore. That's enough to say, yup, the sleepless nights and social isolation are worth it. At least so far :)
Whew I felt this. I’m trying to be as present as possible because I know soon these moments will be gone. We also had a moment where we reflected on how we use to bath him in our bathroom sink as well! The sleeping is getting so much better. He’s a bit violent in the bed with the kicks but soon we are hoping to transition him to his own space. Thank you for residing Sophia ❤️
Looking back, recalling…happy memories mixed with longing. God does what He does… love that line, and now Myles has the better, best of both of you! You’re still fun and loving…just have bigger hearts and dreams now. Such a beautiful letter he’ll cherish someday. 😊🩷
Thank you so much Joan ❤️
Faith, is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
Love that verse. It carried me through some difficult times.
I noticed the verse at the bottom of this post.
As usual, Marc, so beautiful.
Light: I was recently in Costa Rica, hosting a yoga retreat that was 10 years in the making.
Medium: I was finally at a place in my life where I could get away for a week and not have the world come crashing down. I have always been fee-for-service with work, which means no paid time off. With this retreat, I made enough to cover my weekly paycheck, as well as airfare for myself and my 17 year old son. Enough people signed up that both of our lodging was free. It was so magical to share that week with my boy.
Heavy: I am so grateful for where I am today. You couldn't pay me enough to go back and be a younger form of myself, UNLESS I had today's wisdom.
Thank you for your weekly letters, I look forward to them. They fill my heart. You are seen.
I don't know why, but I really love your heavy response. It's something I need to think about - I feel the same. Maybe because everything has led up to where I am now. I'm yearning for a trip for my wife and I. I know it won't be soon since we all have separation anxiety from Myles, but something like Costa Rica or a week away like yours would be nice ❤️
I get that. There is no way I could've done my trip when my boys were little. You're in the thick of it now, but you'll find your way. You might need to think smaller, like and evening or overnight away, rather than a full week.
You just took me back! So much of this was beautifully relatable.
Thank you for reading Bushra ❤️ grateful to have you here
You are hitting the sweet spot of being a Dad. Well done.
Mr. Doom, it's a good place to be. Thank you for being here.
My most recent trip was just a two hour drive to Woodstock NY! We went last year and we think we’ll make it a yearly thing. The food there is REALLY GOOD. And the town is nice and walkable.
I don’t think I’ve felt a sense of nostalgia for who I once was I do feel a sense of sadness sometimes though because often times we don’t get to appreciate it except in hindsight. Working better at being appreciative in the moment and doing LOTS of recording and photos has made a big difference for me so far
When you say food is good, I know it is. I wish I asked you for some food recs when we were in NY/NJ. That would of been lovely.
Trying really hard to stay present on this side. I'm happy I have a phone with mad gigs. I got enough to last a wild!
You know I always got the Google lists available when you ready
All I could think after reading this is the beauty of perspective and the metamorphosis of self…wonderful 😊
My last trip was to Detroit to see Afrofuturism in Costume Design exhibit at the Charles H. Wright Museum which had the Black Panther costumes 🥹
Before that thing happened, I was confident excited, optimistic and felt no limitations on possibilities.
Sometimes, I feel a sense of loss because some life events drastically change the trajectory of your life. I then find comfort in Romans 8:28.
That exhibit sounds amazing! I once went to a Afrofuturism exibit at the Schomburg.
I hope you get get back those qualities - with time, love, and prayer.
Ooo I have yet to make it to that museum and thanks Marc 😌